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Jeeze, I’ve got a friend whose still trembling at the fact they’re locked in one spot for about five years for a PhD. Exercise and fitocratcy’s been keeping them sane thankfully.
I’m already worried about my sanity! I talked to my dad about the high suicide rates amongst med students but his reaction was, “That’s what they WANT you to think so you won’t become competition!” NO DAD PEOPLE ARE REALLY DYING FROM THIS PLEASE DON’T BRUSH OFF THE AGONY AND SUICIDE COMPLETIONS OF THESE POOR PEOPLE D:!!!!!!
That’s part of the reason why I’ve been drawing SO much recently— which isn’t even that much, but so much more than my almost two year dry spell during college. Drawing well gives me a sense of personal accomplishment and brief sense of being content with how things are going. It’s basically my crutch for when things are getting too bad. So getting closer to graduating has resulted in me drawing like a maniac. I don’t post it, but I’ve been making sure to fill a 6000x6000 pixel canvas with practice drawings everyday for the past few days now.
Regardless, I can actually imagine cracking a lot easier under the pressure of medical school because 1.) growing, massive debt 2.) oh shit people’s lives are going to be on the line if I don’t learn this shit 3.) fast pace of the learning 4.) minimum ten years of commitment to it. Meanwhile PhD is free, my grades DURING PhD won’t really matter (one of the professors I talked to at UCSB, which is one of the places I really want to go, said that he doesn’t give a shit about how his students score— he only cares about how well they do in lab and how much they learn and grow as scientists), I’ll have a stipend to live off of a bit, and the most I’ll be killing during my time there are most likely bacteria considering what I’m already doing now.